I am hitting that certain part of my life, where all of a sudden, I feel stuck. Maybe I am not stuck and I am making more of it than it really is. I am currently living in a situation where I don't think I feel happy anymore. Yes I just started a new job and that "should" figure some things out. Well so far it hasn't. I do love the job, but I am not in love with the
state I am living in anymore. II have done what I can here and I feel I need to move on to something bigger with better opps. Now my problem comes into play. What should I do? should I move? I have every option to do that, where ever I want to go, so why am I making this such a big deal? I feel like I am being so damn stubborn as to where I want to go. LA should be the number one place I
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should want to live, but it isn't. I don't know anything about LA, I think that scares me the most, being that small fish in a ocean. do I really want to fight to the gut of the ocean, not really, I want to be happy with everything I can accomplish.. I am sick of fighting with myself to be happy, I just want to move to a place where its filled with oppritunities and do things that I love! I don't want to spend another minute throwing away these precious moments I could be working. Its killing me to figure out where I want to go right now. They always say there is another day to figure it out, just give it time. I don't have all the time in the world, for all I know, it could end tomorrow. I think at this point I want to be happy. I need to stop holding on to something thats no longer there, but I don't want to go back to where I all started from. I don't want to be defeated, and come running back home with my tail between my legs. I am not a person to do that.
Should I round up my life again in a Uhaul and find another place to raise my glass to?
